"Life is not fair." I was surprised to hear these words uttered by my mother -- my mother who has always been full of strength, faith and life's wisdom. More than surprise, I guess what I felt was terror. What was once just a possibility, is now more a probability. My father's health is fast deteriorating, and with it, it would seem, my mother's faith as well. I can't blame her, actually. It is in fact unbearable but perhaps, for her, a hundredfold.
Life indeed is not fair. Life was never supposed to be so. Sometimes it is true that we reap what we sow but it is not always the case. Sometimes those lucky bastards get away with things the easy way, and other times they get what they deserve and more. Sometimes our good deeds go unappreciated and unnoticed yet, there are also times when praises are thrown our way with the least amount of effort. Life's trials are there not to punish us, they are there for a purpose...either to strengthen us, unite us with our loved ones, bring about a realization, teach us or the people around us life's lesson/s...the options are endless. But never must we doubt God, nor blame Him for being unfair. If life were fair, we'd probably all look the same, think the same, behave in the same manner, and born under the exact same circumstances.
How can I explain to you? How can I make you believe? How can I help you rest your doubts? Don't give up on me now, not now when we need to be strong...not now when all we have left is each other.
Lord, I lift up my life to you. I am afraid to look into the future for there is so much darkness. I am afraid of the sorrow. I am afraid of the emptiness. They are so familiar, unwelcome yet inevitable. No, I need to live for the now. I refuse to ruin the "now" for fear of the "what will be". I will concentrate in strengthening my soul for somehow I must survive. I need to survive for my daughter, for my husband and my sister.
Oh, how can I live a life without you?
No, I need to live for the now.
Life indeed is not fair. Life was never supposed to be so. Sometimes it is true that we reap what we sow but it is not always the case. Sometimes those lucky bastards get away with things the easy way, and other times they get what they deserve and more. Sometimes our good deeds go unappreciated and unnoticed yet, there are also times when praises are thrown our way with the least amount of effort. Life's trials are there not to punish us, they are there for a purpose...either to strengthen us, unite us with our loved ones, bring about a realization, teach us or the people around us life's lesson/s...the options are endless. But never must we doubt God, nor blame Him for being unfair. If life were fair, we'd probably all look the same, think the same, behave in the same manner, and born under the exact same circumstances.
How can I explain to you? How can I make you believe? How can I help you rest your doubts? Don't give up on me now, not now when we need to be strong...not now when all we have left is each other.
Lord, I lift up my life to you. I am afraid to look into the future for there is so much darkness. I am afraid of the sorrow. I am afraid of the emptiness. They are so familiar, unwelcome yet inevitable. No, I need to live for the now. I refuse to ruin the "now" for fear of the "what will be". I will concentrate in strengthening my soul for somehow I must survive. I need to survive for my daughter, for my husband and my sister.
Oh, how can I live a life without you?
No, I need to live for the now.
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