Calling it quits. . .

Myke and I have decided to call it quits, finally.

I guess I've always known that I my future lies with my family. Being the youngest, people always get the impression that I grew up spoiled and pampered. On the contrary, being the youngest has caused much pressure on me. My parents are now both in their 70's, I live only to serve them. I have a sister who emotionally depends on me. I once believed my mission was only to my family. Perhaps I was right.

When Myke entered my life, I thought maybe something bigger was in store for me. Perhaps I will not grow old and die alone afterall. Perhaps I have a bigger responsibility to serve. Believe it or not I used to make my niece promise me that she'll let me crash in her big shiny mansion when I grow old and wrinkled. With Myke, everything in my life changed.

*Sigh* Anyway, I'll elaborate more on this some other day. I guess my mind is still too jumbled up to really put into words exactly what I feel.

Whatever happens, I wish you would always pray for both Myke's and my own happiness.

Wake me up when it's over. . . . 

Collateral. . . . damaged!

What can I say about the movie?

ZZZzzzzz . . . ZZZzzzzz . . . ZZZzzzzz . . .

It was a total bore. It lacked action. It lacked suspense. It drove me to the brink of deep sleep. If they converted it into a 10 minute movie it would have gotten a better review from me. . . at least it wasn't a 2-hour waste of time. Anyway, the gist of the story could have been squeezed within that 10 minute period, all the rest was just . . . air.

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I received another call from Accenture today. They were scheduling me for a closing interview. I didn't know how to turn down an outrageous job offer from one of my most ideal companies. She then clarifies that they were offering me regular position afterall. But a data analyst?!? I was an inch away to asking if they had other job openings where I would be more suitable. . . I postponed the interview next week. They may, or they may not call. One thing's for sure though. . . I couldn't stop myself from thinking if I am making a mistake for passing up this opportunity.

My baby behind bars. . . bad kasi yung pulis na may plaslayt eh. . . hahahaha!!!

Death of an illusion

Well I think I woke up being nervous. My big phone interview was this afternoon, and I had no idea what kind of questions they would be asking. I guess what made me doubly nervous was that I really wanted to get in. Accenture was an ideal company for me, with my kind of education and experience-wise background.

You could sense I was out of myself the whole day. Some part of me wanted it to be over and done with, yet still some part of me wanted to escape what is to come. Hahaha. . . you can bet I was unproductive as hell at work!!! What did I do all day? I cut tiny pieces of paper strips. . . well ofcourse they had a purpose, but still to spend the whole damn day doing that? Haha! If only my boss knows. . .

Anyway, a few minutes before my interview, I was all flusterred. I felt I was self-combusting!!! I had to pee twice in an hour. . . . Anyway, they called late at around 3:20 p.m.

All my illusions of finally settling for a job I love died during the first minute of that interview. In all honesty, I didn't know if I should feel sad, disappointed, insulted, or angry. They were offering me a position at their Business Processing Outsourcing unit (BPO). She explained that they were considering me for a non-technical position. Big foreign companies were gonna send documents here for analysis and error correction. I mean, what on earth does that mean? And she continues by asking me what do I think data analysis is. . . What the hell!?!? Data analysis could be a lot of things. . . it can be financial analysis. . . it may mean analyzing the business process efficiency of a company. . . then she asks me if I am amendable to a shifting schedule, and further clarifies that it was a contractual position renewable annually. Like, hello??? Why would I, a regular employee in one of the Big 5 US companies, owning blue chip stocks, enjoying a reasonable compensation package even minutely consider transferring to the b.s. job she is offering me?!?! Like my God!

Never in my wildest dreams did the thought of ever rejecting an offer from Accenture ever crossed my mind. What does it take to get a good position in that company? I am not a genius but I can hold my own. . . Hay. . .

After the interview, and after my devastation reached some sense of rest, I started wondering why? I have always believed in God's wisdom. I have always believed that He always has a purpose. Then the answer came to me. I have never been comfortable, and never felt at home in my company, because I've always known, at the back of my head, that I would some day leave. Perhaps, my future does infact belong in 3M. Perhaps, God was telling me to let go of a dream that wasn't meant to be. Maybe. . . I believe it is so.

But still, I found Accenture's offer to me scandalous! Data analyst my ass! Hahahaha. . . .

Anyway, Anj and I met up today. She plans to buy a new external cd-rw. I can't wait 'till pay day. . . Hay, would be so nice to have some money to burn. . . yeah, as if! Anyway, it would be nice to burn all that money on my bills!!! At least, for a while I'd know how it feels to be not in debt. Bwahahaha. . .

Tomorrow, I shall cut more paper! hahaha. . .

Catwoman, out of balance! 

Great expectation, major put-offs

Hmmmm.... Catwoman. I was actually looking forward to seeing it. Myke and I have been terribly busy these last couple of days, seeing a movie seems awfully relieving. As usual, I felt guilty leaving the office on time. . . . haha! As if I had to feel guilt over it. Anyway, it does seem wierd with me leaving my officemates behind. Well, what the hell should I do? Cheer them on as they go about their jobs? I don't think so. Anyway, I know where my heart belongs.

Anyway, I guess I can say the movie started out alright. The major turn-off came during the part where Midnight transformed Patience into Catwoman. Wooaahh, is that cartoon I'm seeing? Hehehe. . . I guess I was disappointed with the CGI after seeing Spiderman. I mean Spiderman had some pretty incredible scenes, so wonderful you wouldn't have the time to stop and mull over whether that stunt was real or computer generated.

Another big disappointment was Halle's catwoman costume. What is that? With matching "pok-er" lipstick? If I didn't know I was watching Catwoman, I'd think she was some masuchistic prostitute or something. . . Anyway, the story was terrible!!!! As in, excruciatingly terrible. It was like a "Volta" deja vu! How elementary can the story get? A beauty product that sucked? And who was Catwoman's greatest foe? Sharon Stone????!!!??? An ordinary human being with extraordinary hard skin?!? I don't think so

Hay, It sucked. At least our bucket of popcorn and dinner at Green Tomato made all my frustration vanish.

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Hay, I have an interview tomorrow with Accenture tomorrow. It is only a phone interview, but I'm so damn scared. I don't know if I'd feel better if it were a one on one interview. Anyway, I'm keeping my hopes up. Please, please pray for me. I really, really want a shot at this company. Please, please, please. . . .